Feel like stabbing my eyes o.O

ARGH!!! This is killing me.. Blinding me.. And worst of all, giving me a massive shoulder ache and numb arm and hand. What am I talking about? The stupid Multimedia Broadcasting flash assignment that all most broadcasters are vomiting blood over.

But, as much as I hate this assignment AND subject, I know my creative leader Gary is suffering ten thousand times more than me. So whatever little things I can do to help, I won't hesitate to offer, and I make sure that he asks me to do whatever than I can help him with. Just wish some people would take note and do the same. It's not your expertise doesn't mean you can't and shouldn't help out. Heck, it's YOUR assignment too you know. Good thing Beh is helping him alot :)

And, if you want to do something, please make sure you do it properly. If you're gonna just do it halfheartedly, then please. Spare us. We'll do it instead.

I suck at flash, so I'm only doing the illustrator parts. So far so good, had to question Gary on many uncertainties, but I'm getting the hang of it haha.

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On another note, you lighted up my day :)

With each bite, I'm biting into happiness. Hiak hiak.

stamped,

♣ тSc ♠

fakers

some friends. do you know you're THIS CLOSE to being considered a back stabbing friend?

i may be a bitch sometimes by telling people off straight at their faces, perhaps not giving them face in front of their friends, but at least i DON'T talk behind their backs. if i do, they'll know it, cuz i will still tell it to their faces eventually.

i'm not afraid of correcting people. i laugh at people. i joke at the expense of other people. i criticize people. all these i do. i admit i can be mean. but at least i do it in front of my subjects, and not behave like YOU; joking, laughing, dissing people behind their backs, afraid to let them know. i loathe your cowardice and pretentiousness, you vomit inducing nincompoop.

please. is this how you treat your best friend? is this how friends are supposed to be? act all cool and friendly when they're around, and once they turn their backs, you start bitching and gossiping about them?

say it out, if you've got something to say. say it loud, if you've got something to say. say it straight, if you've got something to say.

this kind of honesty does not harm the best of friendships. real friends help each other improve, real friends tell the truth when people feed you what you wanna hear just to make you feel and look good, real friends don't put up an act in front of friends.


and you. please wake up. i know you're no angel, but you should realize, your friends are more of a devil than you are.

to different people

i need to get this off my system. DON'T EVEN DARE bug me to know who i'm referring to.

1. i will diao you no longer. from now on, you're on your own. your business is not my business.
2. brush up your act before you regret.
3. anything you wanna say, say it to my face. GROW UP.
4. to hell with double standards. you have to relinquish your title soon and will be succeeded by other people. then let's see what happens! your ass kissing ways will only get you so far.
   
5. you should know your limit, don't be so 嚣张 and act like a big shot all the time. being rude or disrespectful doesn't make you cool. it makes you an asshole, which you already are.
   
6. if you can't deal with your responsibilities, balik kampung and 耕田! can do all sorts of activities but can't fulfill your own basic commitments? what a joke.
   
7. feel free to press Alt-F4 and never come back if you're perasan.

-EXIT-

and the hols begin :D

lalala~ finals dah habis. ingatkan nak wet puas-puas minggu ni tapi boey ingatkan saya tentang suatu perkara: music work awak dah habis ke?

OH SHIT. haha lupa pula pasal tu. alah. tak leh gi wet la ni. :(

kena pi buat kerja music i. tak syok la cuti ni. haha. tapi, kalau buat kerja music pun syok juga kalau asyik sangat hoho. harap harap saya dapat buat dengan baik. tapi, i nak gi main juga.

nantikan sabtu ni pi melaka makan seharian sama rakan-rakan baik i. pas tu, ada pi tengok persembahan b-boy dari korea juga. itu je? alahai.

nak tengok wayang! tapi banyak filem belum ditayangkan lagi la. sien. cepatlah keluar!

yahoo! merdeka! i dah gila kot. asyik cakap bahasa melayu entah kenapa ahaha. laparnya. balik dari uni tidur.... sebab semalam lewat sangat tidur. dan tidur tak berapa sedap juga sebab nyamuk banyak sangat asyik serang saya aduh... @@ mati la ko orang! >=E

it's despicable how insensitive male chauvinist pigs can be at times. hpmh.

dedneffo

i thought i did okay. turns out i did worse than expected. why did my effort go uncredited? why scruntinize and magnify my faults? why never tell me at that moment? why wait for me to make mistakes? WHY..?

Reminder: NEVER mix work and r/ships together. don't rely on connections. yeah. that's where i made mistakes. it's okay. i will learn from this. it's my first time. i'm bound to make errors. it's a learning process. just have to make sure i don't repeat the mistakes in the future.

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things are taking a turn for the worse. why? why do things screw up everytime i want them to improve? i'm so sick and tired of feeling glum. sick and tired of waiting for things to get better. sick and tired of being sick and tired. i'll just go on for the time being, and see how it goes.

on a random note : i miss my lala auburn hair T.T

ps: i'm sick of you. stop harassing me. just buzz off from my face.

breaking point

she finally broke down. poor girl.

all those seemingly small matters added up, it was too much for her to handle. she couldn't hold her tears in anymore. cry, baby, cry, don't keep everything bottled up inside you.

there's a very uncomfortable feeling inside her. of feeling depressed. of feeling neglected. it's nobody's fault really, but it's just the way she feels.

the surprises have come to a halt, the attentiveness gone, she doesn't get romantically swept off her feet anymore. the calls and texts have lessen, no longer being accompanied, listened to or pampered, the initial spark seems to be disappearing. yes there are a million reasons to it, being busy and occupied with work, tired after working the entire day, friends to socialize with... but she's growing sick of those reasons and excuses. an excuse doesn't necessarily make a person excusable.

when she calls he seems eager to end the conversation, when he calls it's just to report. when she wants to talk he wants to watch tv, how many times has she felt so alone and just needed someone to comfort her but he's not available? can she not depend on him? is she asking for too much?

given time, all these would fade away, at least that's what she hopes for. will he go back to what he used to be? for the time being, all she can do is shut up, just be patient and suck it up.

she wonders what is the boy's point of view. if only she were a mind reader. if only the boy were a mind reader. things would be much simpler...

don't ask. just let me rant.

1st day of production. sucked like fuck. shot one scene less cuz no props. ftw.

and fuck all the cute kiddy damsel in distress bitches. no. actually, it's not their fault. FUCK ALL OF THOSE cute-kiddy-damsel-in-distress-bitches lovers who drool all over them and get weak in the knees when you see them!!! >=E

公私分明 my ASS. i keep telling myself : chill chill chill. it's just work. but why the double standards?! why do you make me feel so unimportant and dispensable all over again?!

i feel so disgusted when i look at how different i am being treated from her. WORK?!?! yea right.

even HE says you look down on me. even SHE says you treated her better than you treated me.

FUCK ALL YOUR MALE

CHAUVINIST PIG TESTOSTERONES!!!

guess till now you haven't even noticed that it has been 7 months.

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